Update BFF problems

I told you the whole story already, but I wanted to give you an update.

So my bestfriend and I have talked about the problem. And I thought everything was okay, but I still feel like things aren't back to normal yet. I don't know how long this will take. Or that it even will get better... We will see, I guess. 

But on to the next thing I wanted to tell you about. I am a coach! Yo will probably know I play volleball, and my trainer has asked me to train the little ones.Of course I couldn't say no. So if anyone of you would like to get some tips. Just leave a comment and I will respond. 

I have something to tell you

I am sorry I haven't posted anything in so long. But life sometimes sucks... I was just not feeling that well so I didn't want to write anything. But now my friends have ditched me, you guys are the only ones I have left. I know my problems are not the worst there are in the world, but I still wanted to write about it.

So let me tell you the story so you will understand.
A few months ago, my friend started dating a guy (lets name her Marie and him Peter). I didn't like Peter from the beginning because he was rude. But I didn't tell Marie cause she is my BFF and I didn't want to screw up our friendship. So I kept quiet and only told my other closest friends and they feld the same way I did over Peter. Now (they have been together for over 3 months) she started to ditch me. She has done this 4 times in a row. I feld hurt because she was my best friend and she always said "Bro's before Hoe's"... Guess I soldn't have believed her. Yesterday, I asked if she was up for a sleepover. Again she couldn't come, but this time because of work. well that is what I thought. I asked her today if I cold come by on her work (she works in an icecream shop). Little did I know, she didn't need to work and was with Peter. The thing is, I feld more hurt that she didn't tell me than the fact that she was with him.
So that is what happened with her... All my other friends live pretty far away, and it is hard to get together with them.

Then the second part of why I am feeling a bit down.
you probably don't know the festival named Pukkelpop. But it is a 4 days festival in Belgium and it was the first time I got to go. I met a guy there. He is very handsome, sweet and he is my school next year. We kissed and I felt very happy with him. After the festival he texted me and we planned to go on a date. The day before the date he texted me and said that he wasn't ready for a relationship. My heart was ripped in pieces. I know I didn't know him that long, but still. He made me happy and I thought I made him happy too. I asked him why he texted me in the first place, he said he wasnt sure back then if we wanted a relationship or not. That was the last time I spoke to him... (This happened in this and the previous week, and today was supposed to be our date day.

Thank you for reading this. It felt good to write everything down and 'tell' someone.
If any of you ever experienced something like this, Please let me know, because I would love to get some advice.

Love,
Ponsie

A New Beginning

pov Louise

Everything looks colourfull, there are lights around me and I hear blasting music in my ears. My body is swaying and moving with the sounds of the beats. I look around and see everybody staring at me, my beautifull lang brown hair is moving like the ocean. My best friend is dancing next to me and I smil at her when our eyes meet. I see a twinkle in hers and know imediatly that she is drunk. Although I thing I'm drunk too.

I start laughing as my friend, Lucy, starts to move her body towards a good looking guy. This is why we came here, to have fun and find a cute guy for Lucy. As I see the boy smirking at her and talking to her, everything changes.

The lights, who were ones so beautifull, go out. I hear screaming people and my breath starts to go faster. Its feels like there is something pushing on my longs so I can't breath. That is the moment I smell the scent of fire. I look around to find Lucy and a way out of this building. But because of the drinks and the thick smoke, I can't see anything. My mind is starting to go black and it feels like the ground is coming towards me. Or am I going towards the ground?

The last thing hear is a voice next to me: "I will get you out of here."
Then everything goes black.

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I wake up with a headache. I probably had a bit to much alcohol... I swirl around and try to get comfy again.
"I see you are awake" A soft voice next to me. That is when realisation hits me. My eyes fly open and I feel a pain behind them. First I can't see anythingn then my vision starts to clear up and I see handsome face in front of me.

who the fuck is this boy?

I crawl away from him and realise I am only wearing a way to big T-shirt and my underwear. So take the duvet and cover myself with it. As I am doing this, the creepy handsome guy is smirking at me and showing these cute dimples.

"Who are you? And where ar my clothes? Where even am I? Lucy! Where is Lucy!?" I shouted at him in horor. I needed to know where my best friend was. What if she couldn't get out the building and dindn't make it. With wory on my face I looked at mister hot in frond of me. Who wasn't laughing anymore. He was sitting on the bed with a serious look on his face.

"My name is Thomas. Your clothes are in the washing machine. You are at my and my friends place, in an appartment. And I asume Lucy is the girl who is in the room of my mate. I think they met at the party just before the fire." Lucy was okay, she was in this building, she is alright. My hands started to tremble, my breathing was short and I started to feel dizy.

"Are you okay?" I tried to focuse my gaze on his face, but evertuthing was going blury. I feld a warm hadn around my wrist and sudently I was infrond of Thomas. Our knees touchig. I looked into his eyes as was comforting me.

"Just take a deep breath. In. Out. That's it. Just try to relax." I was calming down and soon I was feeling alright.

"Can I see Lucy?" I asked Thomas. He had symphaty in his eyes and stood up, leading the way out of the room. I took a look around and realised it was actually still dark outside. We walked through a hallway and stopt in front of another door. Thomas pushed it open.

"Can we come in?" He wispered to womeone in the room. Probably his roommate. I heard a quiet yes and he pushed the door competely open. I ran inside, But strong arms stopped me.

"She is asleep, gorgious." I was now looking closely and saw that she did was asleep.

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I hope you liked this little story of mine. Please let me know if you want me to continue 'A New Beginning'!

Bye!
Ponsie x

Kittens!

Hello guys!

There has happened something super exiting! My friend Her cat has had kittens! There are 5 in total and I asked her if I can come to her house to look at the kittens. I don't know the colours or if they have names, But I'm still super happy about it! I will try and make some cute pictures of the little ones. I am also going to ask my mom if we can keep one of them once they are old enough to leave their mummy. I already have a cat, but he is super sweet towards other cats and even dogs. And when we go on holiday and my gran comes to feed him, he wouldn't be so lonely. I just hope I can get another kittycat and rase him/her by myself because Syva, the cat that we have now, was adopted. And I do think it would be amazing to have a mini in our household! The only thing I am afraid of is that Syva would leave if we would take another kitty. So would appreciate if you guys would leave a comment about what you think. And feel free to look at my other posts if you haven't already!

I know this was a quick post, but I wanted to share the story with you guys! I think animals are amazing and wan't to have many of them. But not too many!

Lots of love!

Ponsie x

Drawing

Hello there!

One of my favourit things to do is to draw. I like it because you can literaly Think about nothing and clear your head. The only thing you are busy with is looking at your papare and controlling your hand. I've never been too a class and the way I learned drawing is by doing it many times. So I thought I would take some pictures of my best art and put them in this post. There are also 3 paintings. I hope you enjoy! 

Bye!

Ponsie x

25 Facts About Me

Hello everyone! Because you all don't know me that well, I thought I would do the 25 Facts About Me tag. So here we go!

1. I play volleyball for about 12-13 years
2. I have only owned 3 phones and that means 1 Nokia and 2 Samsungs
3. I have one cat called Syva and we have adopted him
4. I live in Belgium and actually speak Dutch
5. My favourit youtubers are Zoella, Pointlessblog and Thatcherjoe
6. I have brown hair and brown eyes
7. I have one older brother
8. I hate spiders
9. I can't watch a scary movie without being freeked out
10. I never paint my nails
11. My feedsize is 6 (UK)
12. My favourit fruit is an apple
13. I absolutly hate learning French at school
14. I can sometimes get claustrophobic
15. I hate pickles
16. My favourite flower is a Tulip
17. I love the sound of the rain and I also really the smell of rain
18. I am a huge fan of candles
19. I have clammy hands
20. I am very protective over my friends
21. Teh number 3 is my favourit
22. I was born on 22/03/2000
23. I love reading books and blogs
24. The blogname comes from the volleyball. Everyone there calles Ponsie
25. My biggest dream is to travvel the world with friends

I really hope you have enjoyed it and know me now a little bit better. Thank you so much for reading this, it means a lot to me!

Bye!

Ponsie x

Sweaty Hands

This may be a weird topic to talk about. But I really wanted to tell the world about this problem. Imagine yourself being embarrassed when you are holding hands with someone. Even highfiving becomes scary, because almost no-one will understand you and your clammy hands. That is the way I thought before I found out that clammy hands isn't a bad thing.

If you are feeling the same way, you will get why I was so self conscious when a person touched my hands. And during the summer it even gets worse and when I am in stress, it almost drips of my hands.

And I can't do anything about it myself because it is genatic. You can buy product that should help, but what if they dont help? Then you can get an operation, but I don't know if I want an operation. And it also is pretty expensif. So first, you are born with it. Second, you can't do anything about it unless you give out some/a lot of money.

But what is are clammy hands? It is called SPS, AKA Sweaty Palms Syndrom. It means that your sweat glands are overworking and produce to much sweat.

After a while, my best friends noticed I had sweaty palms. I thought they would think it was disgusting. But in reality, they just laughed a bit about it (in a good way) and just see it as a part of me. My best friend even ignores it when she holds my hand. This means that your friends and family aren't going to judge you, just because you happen to have SPS. And if it keeps bothering you, you can always get a surgery. But think really good about it. Is it worth it? Do you really want to get rid of it? Because if you don't mind your sweaty palms, then the people around you shouldn't mind it and just accept it. That is the way I look at it now. I think: okay, it isn't always fun. But it is a part of your body and a part you, so embrace it.

I hope you learned something about it. Leave a comment about your 'imperfections' and I will reply and give you tip! Be brave and tell our little community what you are thinking/feeling!

Bye!
Ponsie xx